不要怕慢慢地向前发展;恐惧的唯一停滞不前。

"Do not fear going forward slowly; fear only to stand still" --Chinese Proverb

So... where do i start?

i miss Taiwan. like, a TON.

i feel selfish... in a way. Right now i'm going to College (for self) when there is so much need out there (for others).

i've been talking to my Dad (he's really amazing and encouraging, Ps!) and he's been telling me that I have to start looking at the bigger picture. Yeah, i'm at college right now and kind of unable to do a whole lot of stuff for others, but when i think about it, why AM i here?

The answer was simple. i'm here to become a nurse.

but why am i becoming a nurse?
so that i can go to other countries and serve the people who can't afford it.

then, after seeing the "bigger picture" why is it still so hard to be patient?
and why would God hold me back a year? Is there really that much more i need to learn before i can go out and benefit others?

probably.

i'm just really having a hard time seeing the bigger picture.

i talk to my friends from over there, who beg me to return. and in all honesty, since i've been "home", i've never really felt "at home." no, i don't think it's just because of all the stuff my family's been going through these past few years either. i was just looking at pictures from my blog (oh, this one in fact!) and i was taken aback at how much emotion i had attached to each picture. seriously, i was close to tears from the precious memories behind each photograph. weird.

:sigh:

ok, now i've vented. again. weird how it's so much easier to vent on paper (or, in this case, "Internet"?) then it is to vent in person...

Anywho, if you think about it, pray that God would give me grace and contentment for where i'm at right now. i don't want to take for granted the time i have here at college or the genius professors or the amazing co-students/friends/roomies. i'm trying to have patience w/ where i'm at in life right now and trying to live each moment to it's max... i just don't want to miss anything that God tosses my way :)

Thanks <3

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This is where I'll be practicing all my Chinese Skills!

(... or lack thereof) :P

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"If my heart was a house, you'd be home..."

wow.

Did I ever tell you how good my God is?? ...cuz, in all honesty, I don't know what I'd do w/out Him <3 id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">lol. never seem to escape that one, eh? but it was super good. like, for the bike-trips, *I* got to be the one who carried the 1st-aid kit (probably cuz I was the only one who knew how to use it ;)! but seriously, so many kids got hurt (by falling off, running into others, etc) that we were using that kit 24-7! it was pretty amazing... oh! and I also got to see my first "Eclipse" - which, although it wasn't the full-effect, it was SUPER COOL and the kids were really excited! It was neat to see something that I will probably never get the opportunity to see again :) Ok, so that was a really, REALLY brief overview of week 3. Week 4 was totally, absolutely, positively, and most assuredly FANTABULISTIC!! we worked with the aboriginal kids from the school again (the kids from week 2). This time we had more of a lesson-plan (which I always love!). I worked with the 2-4 graders for the first 3 days - taught them the whole alphabet! The little kids, although their energy level is super high, are really adorable! They've never had a foreigner over to their school before, so they cling on to ever word that I said. The older kids were just as cool. they loved showing me their music and showing me some "Asian dances"... SO COOL! lol. they were so cute, trying to act all gangsta and such <3 id="SPELLING_ERROR_14" class="blsp-spelling-error">haha.... and some of their questions... wow ;)

yup. so that was the week with the kids... but there are more stories to come... <3