Cuz i can't Thank You enough

What can I do for You?
What can I bring to You?
What kind of song would you like me to sing?

'Cause I'll dance a dance for You
Pour out my love to You
What can I do for You beautiful king?

'Cause I... can't thank You enough.
I can't thank You enough
What can I do for You?
What can I bring to You?
What kind of song would you like me to sing?

'Cause I'll dance a dance for You
Pour out my love to You
What can I do for You beautiful king?

'Cause I... can't thank You enough.
I can't thank You enough
All of the words that I find... and I can't thank You enough.
No matter I try... I can't thank You enough.
Then I hear You sing to me

"you... don't have to do a thing
Just simply be with me and let those things go
'Cause they can wait another minute

Wait... this moment is too sweet
Would you please stay here with Me
And love on Me a little longer"

I hear You say...
"You... don't have to do a thing
Just simply be with me and let those things go
'Cause they can wait another minute

Wait... this moment is too sweet
Would you please stay here with Me
And love on Me a little longer
I'd love to be with you a little longer
'Cause I'm in love with you(listen via YOUTUBE)


Over the last 48 hrs, i've been completely and utterly in awe of how amazing our God's LOVE is...
we do stupid things. we say the wrong thing. we don't take time to be genuine with people. we forgive and remember. we say we love someone... and end up hurting them the worst...  and yet, even after it's all said and done, we have the privilege of coming before an awesome God *still* chooses to LOVE US! ...that's pretty amazing.

yeah, so we had a friend (AlAna) come over for the weekend/these past few days. She came as a missions trip to observe and "report" what us English Teachers are doing over here in Taiwan. We all had to "act normal" while she walked around and took pictures... oh! and then we had to do an "interview" - man! i do hate public speaking, even if it is only in front of a camera (er... *required* public speaking... cuz, as many of us know, i do enjoy talking just for the fun of it... just, not when it's required) :P So yeah, I'm pretty sure i stuttered my way through the whole 2minute interview.... but oh well.

actually, it kind of sparked my thinking (again)... why am i here? if i were to ask this question, i'm sure that some ppls label me as a "missionary"... some label me as a "teacher" (that's still a foreign concept to me... ), and some label me "an uncertain girl with an uncertain future who's going to taiwan to escape having to make a choice in reality" (...okay, so maybe i'm the only one who labels me that... but i'm sure it's crossed some other ppls minds). yeah, so i've been thinking and asking myself... "camille, WHY are you here in Taiwan" and oh man, *I* could list a million-and-two reasons that i'm here: the children! the people/co-workers! the love that is felt all over Taiwan (i swear, this country has more love in it than all of America put together!)!i'm here because i know and can see God in a whole new light while i'm here... and it's BEAUTIFUL! i came this year, not only hoping to love taiwan and her peoples... but also to rediscover WHO God is... and what He wants me to do with my life!

 I love taiwan with passion. and my heart will always be here.

and I know I will end up permanently... eventually.

so here's to the future: bring what you want, cuz MY future is in my Father's hands!

Lots of Love to y'alls!! <3 <3

Daniel 4:35

"All the inhabitants of the earth are reputed as nothing;
He does according to His will in the army of heaven
And among the inhabitants of the earth.
No one can restrain His hand
Or say to Him, 'What have You done?' "

i serve a HUGE God.

as i continue to seek God's will for my future (or at least, this next year), i am taken aback... here i worry about tomorrow and what this next year is going to hold... yet, i am just a SMALL part in this HUGE production called LIFE! Nebuchachadnezzar had it sooo right when he said we are NOTHING... all of us ppls (good and bad) cannot move God... sooo it's not about me... yet how often i finding myself acting like it is... **tsk, tsk to self**

Aaaanywho, those are some random points i got from my devotion this morning :)

THIS IS GOING TO BE A GREAT NEXT FEW WEEKS... starting today :D


Yes, we've had some really *good* weeks over the past few months... but these next few months are going to FLY by!!! We are going to be going and going over the next 4-ish months. and my weeks just look packed! and that makes me so excited!!! This week we have an amazing group of kids (yes, it is still Monday morning, but i can already tell we're gunna have a good week!)! and on Friday morning, I LEAVE FOR JAPAN!!! i am so excited! i get to see April Walker (my amazing roomie/really awesome friend from BU) and we're going to hang for 3 days!! ya know how needed that its? I just love how God planned that out... putting one of my close friends in my life during the 1/2 point of my year... to encourage me to finish strong!! So amazing, Lord. so amazing!! Oh... and then we're gunna be spending (most of) next week up in Taipei for training and adventuring around the city w/the other CEI teams! really excited about that!

AND THEN TO TOP IT OFF(!!!)

my "granny" Ruthie Hug is COMING TO TAIWAN... for TEN DAYS!!! She and her friend (Madeleine) are coming over Feb. 1st and we are going to travel and explore Taiwan like no one ever has before!! we're staying w/ friends, eating all sorts of adventuresome foods, and living life to it's fullest!! ::sigh:: words cannot express my happiness as i anticipate these glorious events!! ;D

after that we are back to weeks upon weeks of teaching!! goodness... i've only got 5months left here... i feel like i've been here for a lifetime already (in a good way!!), but it's all gone by so fast... and i'm still not so sure that i want this to be over :(

God is going to have to do some major work in my heart over these next few weeks, because right now... i am playing it "comfortable" and *not* choising whether to go back to MN or stay in Taiwan. but... i think that's ok. because God knows what's happening next year... and when the time comes, He'll make everything fall into it's proper place. of this, I AM SURE!!

Love y'alls!

going from Good to Great

"GOOD IS THE ENEMY OF GREAT. And that is one of the key reasons why we have so little that becomes great. We don't have great schools, principally because we have good schools. We don't have great government, principally because we have good government. Few people attain great lives, in large part because it is just so easy to settle for a good life. The vast majority of organizations never become great, precisely because the vast majority become quite good-and that is the main problem.Those who built the good-to-great companies, however, made as much use of "stop doing" lists as "to do" lists. They displayed a remarkable discipline to unplug all sorts of extraneous junk."
- Jim Collins

So Happy New Year to Y'alls!

So sorry it's been so long since i've updated this thing... sadly enough, I've been finding it easier to update facebook (plus i know more peoples check fb than they do my blog) :P

Lots has happened since last blog... and lots more is going to happen within these next few weeks/months. it's a little overwhelming...

[breathe in] [breathe out]

this past month has been ooper challenging as i've been watching and experiencing God pulling me back to himself in a deeper way than before. i feel a passion for my life coming back again and it's exciting! funny, actually... because i look back to when i started this blog and i see such a passion in everything. and i had to wonder... where did i lose my passion? where did i lose my "goal"? ... honestly, i don't think that it was just gone in a day... i think things just built up over time, and instead of relying on my faith, i gave up. [sigh] words cannot describe how grateful i am to be back in Taiwan... taking a time of refreshment away from the world that i get so "comfortable" in and re-evaluating my life. this week has been especially helpful for this because my team has been going through The Global Leadership Summit video series and it's blown my mind!

**side note inserted here: if you need convincing that this is really as good as i say it is, take a look at this website and click on the 2010 Highlights - it's really inspirational**

So yeah... anyways... there has been a TON in these videos... like, mind-thinking overload. Seriously going to watch some of them over again (and actually take notes this time) :P One thing that really jumped out to me in this last one (featuring Jim Collins) was when he was giving his speech on "level 5 leaders" and how to attain that. but he had a good point... he mentioned how people can live like they are level 5 leaders on the outside... but they aren't fully living to that potential because their heart isn't in it... [[bwaooooong goes the gong inside of my head]] ouch. how often do i find myself pretending to be excellent... and doing amazing things... and yet, my heart isn't in it. is it supposed to be and i'm just not letting it? or are those the times when i've been in the wrong area of work?

::sigh::

i'm gunna stop myself here, mainly cuz i know that i need to re-watch these video's again (sooo much info... gosh!)

oh!! and here's a quick review of what's gone on these past few weeks:

*taught some amazing weeks of kids. *got to sleep in on new years day. *talked to my little sister (abbi) on skype like 3 times!! *got a letter from my boyfriend, Dean - actually, he's one of my students... but he's my precious little guy too <3

PRAYER REQUEST!!!

* that I glorify God in EVERYTHING that I say/do!!!!!!!

* for the kids/program - that we would be able to get across to each child what they need to hear and how they need to hear it

* for REST (lately i've been running on 4hrs of sleep per night... mainly my own fault, but still...)

* for a desire for God's word - it's so easy to forget how amazing that time is when it's just me+my Jesus... :)

* FUTURE PLANS/DECISIONS: too many choices! and all are amazing (kind of wishing God would close some doors in this case...). between going to college in the States/ going to college in Taiwan/coming back for another year of teaching... {{sigh}} i'm thinking i might just put up a poll on FB and let my friends decide this one for me. LOL. kidding... But seriously, be praying for me because i know there are many good opportunities... and maybe i'm not meant to be doing any of these this fall... so whatever happens, i just want it to be God's Will.... not mine <3

Love y'alls <3

"If you'll hold on to me for dear life," says God, "...I'll give you the best of care if you'll only get to KNOW and TRUST ME." -Psalms 91:14-16 (the Message)