Running With Eyes Closed

.... is stupid.


So.... i'll (try to) make this a quick post.


basically this weekend was awesome.


i did NOT want to go to this TESOL retreat, "hang out" with all these really cool ppls, be social, sit through long and boring sessions, etc, etc, etc....


boy did God change that...


 and y'all will hear about it in the next post :) 



however, this post is about Saturday morning. and that morning was fantabulistc!!


i have this really cool friend. her name is KimChee. 

KimChee is a really really cool friend cuz she wakes up at 6am to go running with me.... ^_^


So KimChee and i get our gears on and take off in the drizzley rain for a quick 2 mile-ish jog (maybe more like 1.5...?).  however.... we took off ....and forgot to watch where we were going.... 


yeah.... we got a little lost... which is weird, cuz i NEVER (never, never, NEVER)  get lost in Taiwan! 


It's kind of funny looking back at it.... instead of going on a quick run and coming back, showering up, taking our time w/ getting ready for the day, etc, etc.... we ended up walking all around ALL OF TAIPEI (not really, but it felt like it...), with NO money, NO food, NO phones, and NO idea what the name of our place was called.... or how to get back there (apparently) :P


i seriously almost broke down crying... not cuz we were that lost ~ i was sure we'd find our place eventually. but it was so embarrassing to have no clue where we were.... cuz i had just boasted the night before on how amazing my sense of direction is here in Taiwan. boy, oh boy! i got a whole new lesson (again) on how pride comes.... right before the fall :P


So after about 30-45 minutes of pointless wandering... i finally stopped us and asked KimChee if we could take a few moments and pray, cuz i was completely done with just wandering around town.... :-\


we did. and within 8minutes, we were walking up the stairs of our dorm to our rooms to freshen up :) :)


however.... i did do some thinking while we were walking around... 


i thought about my year in Taiwan. 


and how... for the most part, i feel like i've gone through the year "running with my eyes closed".... 


going and going and going... but not really savoring the precious little moments as much as i should.


i've been here in Taiwan for 8 (9?) months, and i feel like, sometimes,  i fall into the [MODE]... which, to me, means that i have a scheduled bunch of events and things i must do. i do them. and nothing more.


how boring, right?


i've been running through most of this year.... without really paying attention to the little things. just trying to make it to the end to say "this is what i did last year".....  ((ouch... i really hate admitting that one)) :P


i'm not coming back to Taiwan next year...


thus, i have 50-ish days left here. 


during these next 50 days, i've resolved to make the most of my time left here.


i'm doing a lot more traveling to visit my Taiwanese friends (actually... going to go visit my precious friend, May, up in Taipei this weekend). 


i've decided to take a break off of Facebook (at least until i get back stateside)


i'm taking some time away from movies ~ there are no good ones out anymore anyways :P


and i'm going to be utilizing EVERY POSSIBLE MOMENT i have left in Taiwan. 


every ounce of strength i have (in myself and through Christ)


and every little piece of mwa.... is going to go ALL OUT during these next few weeks left here.




((actually.... most of this was written really late at night.... and i don't feel like editing it... so forgive me if it makes no sense....))




Love y'all lots and lots <3 <3